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The past 5 days was the longest 5 days in the history of the Yong family...we experienced the demise of my grandpa, and a 5-day funeral was held downstairs to pay our last respects.

Grandpa accepted Christ a few months back, and was subsequently baptised. So, the funeral held was a christian one. On saturday, he passed away peacefully in hospital after telling aunt to go home when she visited him... he slept and then passed off peacefully... his body was sent back at late noon. we had service on sunday and tuesday..and today where hymns were sang and messages were delivered... pastor said grand dad is in heaven now, so we need not feel sad. Nevertheless, my aunts and my mum wept buckets... it was a heartbreaking sight. In my memory, except that i remembered grand dad bringing me home after school, i don't remember much...his later years after suffering from stroke, he was thrown into a constant bad mood...and shouts at grandma even when she had to do a lot of things for him... maybe he was just getting old and tempermental...in my years of youth, i had never asked about him or talked to him much... i kinda regret not being a better person to him...could have been...but its all too late.

Mum hardly had enough sleep these few days, chalking up no more than 3hours a night, luckily she is sound asleep now... its a long day for her, she wept so much today, she was trembling with tears beside me during prayer today...i had to hug her to calm her down... at the cremation place, aunties were weeping, one of my aunts held on to the coffin and refused to let go... everyone cried so loudly after that. it was all so sad...

we placed flowers in the coffin and off was grandpa's coffin into the cremation incinerator... we stood at the viewing hall as we watch his coffin being pushed inside...aunties were weeping and crying out loudly, the kids (including me) were weeping silently, everyone was sad... i gave mum pats on her back to make her feel better.

now, the tears had stopped... i will not cry anymore because as God said, he is the way, the truth, the life, no ones goes to heaven except thru' him...and i believe that since grandpa accepted Christ, he is with God in heaven now. God bless his soul.

Ok, i know that i had not been blogging since god-knows when... but heh heh, i have an excuse... cos these few weeks i had been obsessing over the American Idol shows, downloading videos of performances & mp3s of the finalists.

No prizes for guessing my favourite...cos He's absolutely it...the deep soulful voice with the nice "Growlllllll" to it... my ever so cool and handsome, BO BICE!!!! *applause* honesty speaking, these few nights i had been unable to sleep early as i was reading the post, downloading ALL possible mp3 and videos of him, joining the "BICE SQUAD" and reading ALL the articles about him... he is the reason that i watch American Idol ever so faithfully for the 1st time... & i'm so proud of him, his attitude, his religion, his style, his EVERYTHING. I'm not ashamed to say that i LOVE him...he's gorgeous.

 I knew it was LOVE!!!

 Kisses  for my Hero!!!

His "Spinning Wheel" performance is FLAWLESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What made me sat up to notice him was so simple. during the initial auditions, i didn't even knew that he existed... i remembered that i was on the bus at night one day to town, when the TV mobile on the bus was showing "ameican idol"... i wasn't concentrating on the screen, and that was when i heard the song "drift away"...i heard a resounding, soulful voice booming thru the whole bus, & that was when i looked up to see BO BICE performing that song. That was the moment i knew he was the 1... the American Idol... & my obsession with A>I started... the rest is history...

Now the happiest thing that could have happened is that Singapore will be bringing American Idol live via satellite on wednesdays noons, which is when America will be having their live performance... im so gonna be hooked to the TV set.

My ultimate fantasy of Bo is really simple too. i read that hes a certified massage therapist... i would so like to receive a longggggggggggggg longggggggggggg massage from him... with oils and other stuffs... (i leave the rest for imagination)  LOL... Ahhhhh...i'm so gonna dream so many ******* things about him tonight, & wake up a very happy woman tomorrow morning.

& Nads, if u happen to be reading this, Please tell me that u & ya pals R rooting for BO BICE over in america.!!!

Sarcasm. Is that the trait i adopted so well nowadays? i like to think my form of sarcasm is a subtle one, for sarcastic words pisses people off like no other. I like the subtle/sarcastic me... because, it makes me bring my point across without pissing people off...which is, u know, cool. cos i really hate to see people offended by my words.

Today, something like this happen. I used to think that in any arguement, i have 60% chance of not having the last say. But what happened today changed my point of view, made me more confident to speak up on how i really felt, it was like i was a hermit no longer. Cos, i had the last say... in the subtle/sarcastic manner...& the opposing party had to retreat & succumb to silence, perhaps, in agreement, or maybe even defeat.

Anyways, i brought bobby down for a walk today. He was quite tame today..that mad dog. He bit grandma up so badly yesterday...(grandma received 5 stitches on her right hand)... i shall not go into details about how she got bitten, (as i already told that story several times in school & at home)...but i would like to say that the fault lies in all 3, (grandpa, grandma, bobby)... anyhows, he's a good dog to me so far.

okies, sis is going to watch DH now...& i gotta bath also...ya all have a great weekend!

Adios!

Watched "Million Dollar Baby" with the rest of ma' B3s today... i kinda forced them into it... lol... but sweet as they were, they obliged me...i swear i would oblige them on the next movie... let them make the decision... can't wait for thursday's "Hitch" though...

Million Dollar Baby won so many awards in the 77th Oscars awards yesterday...Best actress, best supporting actor (morgan freeman deserves it so much), best director for clint eastwood (although i felt that martin scorsese deserves it more) and best picture (i wanted finding neverland to win). I felt that yeah... it deserves all these awards, except for best director... i always felt that it was high time someone gave Martin Scorsese the Oscar award he deserved. Afterall, he directed Powerhouse films like "The Aviator" , "Gangs of New york", "Taxi", "Cape fear", "Casino" etc... in my idea, he was one of the finest, or perhaps, most underrated director of all time. *Someone pass the Oscar to this man already please.* Well, i guess thats life for you... things are hardly ever fair...& talent without luck is hardly a consolation.

However, i do find that it deserves the Best picture and best supporting actor awards...for best actress, i can't comment much as i had not seen all the movies that the nominated actresses had acted in...but however, i think Morgan freeman is a great actor, a character actor, i would call him, as he based his acting foundation on his talent alone, not looks (brad pitt, keanu reeves, tom cruise...), not luck, not youth...just talent & talent alone. like it or not, that guy deserves it. As for best picture...well, what can i say? Judging from the trend of Best picture awards so far, i can only say that the Oscars love melodrama, grim & dim.. much more than Fantasy or comedy/slapstick. (Think Rainman(1988), Silence of the lambs(1991), Unforgiven (1992, & another film by clint eastwood), Schindler's list (1993), Forrest Gump (1994))...

Actually, i like Million dollar baby, on the surface, it may seem to be just another "boxing" movie, but actually, it tells more than that...it tells you that some people have the courage to chase their dreams, fight for what they want, challege themselves... be heard... even for the simplest stuffs...they draw strength & happiness from living it up...but for some people...dreams are dreams...merely something imagined, not chased...not pursued...left without a voice. Some people spend their whole lives in regret that they never fulfilled their "dreams", but...if u won't chase your dreams...they will never rise up to be more than just dreams.

i, for one, is guilty of that... as a kid growing up to a teenager, & entering adulthood this year, i had a lot of dreams... big dreams of being famous, pretty, slim, smart, popular, known, having lots of $$ & a great job..but sad to say, i'm a comfort animal...i like to be given everything without needing to fight much for it..i want to be treated like a baby, shelthered...thus, i lost years of my life achieving nothing. Not a fact that i'm proud of...but i guess, people gotta learn...

In parting, i would like to encourage you people out there who have dreams..."Go for it, find your voice... a life without regrets starts with having the courage to Live it Up."

Ciao..

I swear i didn't just put my hand full of bacteria into my mouth... i swear i didn't! Actually, yah, i think i did...i just stroked bobby's head when i came back from school, & i forgot to wash it...& the next thing i knew, i was biting my nails (a rather bad habit of mine)...shackles!

well, bobby's the new family dog... that kelvin brought home. he's a cocker spaniel, or so, kelvin had claimed...but he really just looks like a smaller version of a golden retriever with a cute patch of fringe on his head... he bit & scratched me yesterday when i tried to carry it. bad dog! kelvin thought i did something really horrible to it, but after a while, he himself got bitten. thereafter, he realised that i didn't "do something" to it and asked me about the bite, which i was quick to reply that it wasn't anything much... i didn't want to implicate bobby & cause him to be whacked outa shape.

i have big dreams about bobby...i want to train him...to do some "tricks" to vertain people i detest or i want outa my way...i'm so lucky cos those ppl that i want out are all afraid of dogs...wahahahahhah *evil laughter*...

speaking of which, i feel like going to play with bobby now...he's going to be my favourite pet ever. if u know what i mean.